Thursday, February 19, 2009

Spring is Coming

I saw it this morning in the lean of the sky. That bold sun hid behind white ruffled clouds and shot razor-beams across the pale blue. The trees are whispering to each other, stretching their long-bowed fingers, bud-tipped, making ready to grasp the light of day.

Last night a young black bear loped across the road in front of my red Ford F-350 crew cab pickup (farewell tight-turning Expedition--I drive a monster, now.)

"A bear!" I exclaimed, scaring the living daylights out of my daughter, who tossed her i-pod and clutched at her heart,

" God, mom, are you trying to kill me?"

Of course not, I just wanted her to see the bear.

As if the green haze across the lawn weren't enough, as if that warm wind moving with easy speed through the undergrowth did not tell the tale, certainly that young bear, lean and dark from his winter sleep is clear evidence of the coming Spring.

I never got my great snowfall, but did have one peaceful evening when the world turned white. I cannot say I enjoyed my winter. Though our Christmas was truly lovely, the tree, the asthma, and now the allergies were not.

It makes me wonder, though, what will my Spring be like? This year I know what the blowing pollen will do. All those years and all that illness, I never knew.

I am allergic.

Does it really matter what to? To the natural world, to trees and grass, to weeds, to microscopic mold spores that dwell on underbellies, that thrive in the dampness of my southern climate, to dust, to all sorts of things.

My body is a riot of objection, it thinks near everything is an invader, it marshalls the troops, hauls out the guns, vows to win the war! My nose twitches, my eyes water, my skin gets creepy crawly, my knees swell, my stomach aches.

As the fighting continues, I grow more and more weary until getting out of bed to make coffee seems more effort than I can manage. All because of allergies. At least I have a name for my foe, for that low-lying demon who has haunted me all my life. At least I live in a time and place where we have such things as antihistamines and albuterol. Fexofenadine, my faithful new friend.

I am always pensive in February, peering out from the shadows of the cold, dark nights and the heaviness of the flu season. As the sun stretches itself across the sky, holding on to two more minutes each day and the inevitable Spring crawls close, I wonder, I really do; What will this Spring be like?


jamahlgl said...

"My body is a riot of objection,"

Reminds me of an Arcade Fire lyric-I likes:-)

lakshmi said...

Hi Jamahl!

You came to visit me in my writing lair. Thanks for stopping by and I'm glad you enjoyed this entry.

We have been snowed in for days here! So much for Spring!


Clarke Crutchfield said...

Hi, La -- book topic! (You keep sprouting them -- it's OK, you can't help it.) You know, if you were start with the words "I am allergic" and continue for the next two or three paragraphs of your post, you've got a grand opening for a book on coping with allergies. Just a suggestion. Thanks for the post, I enjoyed it!
--- Clarke

lakshmi said...

Let's see, how many books will I be writing now….?

I like all your ideas, Clarke. Now, if only I could find the TIME to actually work on any of them! Oh, I might need the MONEY, too. :>

I'll log this idea away. It's a good one actually, I like it a lot. Thanks, Clarke. I sincerely hope to have cake one day. Maybe, if I leave it long enough you can come over, too! :>

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